I am a Texan, a Patriot of the Extraordinary USA, I am very stubborn which at times is a blessing as much as at times it can be a curse haha (my hubby & family can attest to my stubbornness), but that Lethal combination I guess you can say is a large basis of a vocally strong individual.
I am a Strong Woman.
That is one thing I have never doubted about myself. I am surrounded by strong women; my momma, my sisters, grandmas & strong people in general, always have been. Young women leaders, friends & people at church who with or without their knowledge, their strength gave me strength. I seek out strength. Those physically & spiritually strong have always grabbed my attention. Whether I saw their strength at times of normalcy, or when they were broken but carried strength possibly unseen by themselves, it was seen by me. Strength is probably one of the most admirable qualities because as unfortunate as it is, it is very uncommon. The reason being is that Strength is not bought or sold, it is earned & often in our meekness given as a gift. The Beauty with strength is that it can be found in weakness & at times of pure humbleness. At those times, strength comes in doses that build a foundation of strength that can pull you through anything. I say anything in that I, from recent experience have experienced things I never have before & some I have. I had to look at every aspect of my life even going back several years to gather up every bit of strength I could muster. When I thought it was impossible, I was Given added strength from a loving Heavenly Father & Savior. Its sometimes the hardest trips to our own Gethsemane that we are presented with that strength as an added gift & reminder of love from our supreme creators. I am fully aware & believe & more so Know that all that I have & hope to be in my individual life & as a patriot of this nation that I am privileged to call home, would not be possible without our supreme creators. My life, my country, & my family was & will be founded upon by strong, God fearing individuals. I have Big dreams & many many goals but I still at the ripe young age of 25 don’t know what the heck I want to do with my life. However, being eternally grateful for past & current examples in my life, I have Always known the Woman I want to be.
With recent trials I was reminded of & reflected on conversations I had with my pops throughout my life. I often wondered why I had to go through all I had & was going through at the time. But, being a father of three girls (which must have been terrifying for a man, & father) he always knew what to say. He is Not a strong woman but he is a Strong man, physically & spiritually & raised 4 strong children & 3 strong daughters who grew to be strong women. Below is a quote that sums up what he taught & my recorded reflections of those conversations.
If you ever wonder why bad things happen to good people.
It’s because God knows they’re capable of handling it.
My dad was a great example of this, anytime I was struggling or going through something my dad would come have a talk with me & explain that what I was going through was unique to me, & that as big & strong as he is, if he were faced with the same struggle he may not be strong enough to handle it as I am.
My dad is a big guy, (from one of my favorite stories of my moms) He has arms that could bend rail road tracks. Having several of these talks with my dad it always put in comparison & a little shock that someone so big & strong wouldn’t be able to handle what I was going through. But more than that, aside from the many things that those talks taught me, one in particular was a lesson in strength. Not so much of the physical aspect, but being spiritually strong.
If you know me & what I have gone through in my young life, strength is something I desperately needed on a daily basis & now being grown I still cherish those talks & when “bad things” happen, I just whip out my spiritual rail road track bending strength because I’m capable of handling whatever trials life has for me, just like my dad.
After all I am little sam.
Oh Change how we know thee well…
Me & the hubby are too familiar with this lovely word, good & bad we know it well. We recently have been faced with a sudden change that is here before for us like a zit, you knew you were expecting it someday just not so soon. But I will get onto the changes at a later time once we get a grasp of things ourselves.
With the stress & excitement & intimidation of this soon to come Change, we needed some stress relieving. This sounds awful but luckily the Hubby got sick this week (poor hubs) & we both have just been lazy bums & honestly it has been just what we both needed. We are still like AHHH with everything but, rested up & more energy & clearer eyes, we now feel ready to take on these changes (or so we think we feel).
So the first day Chris was sick he slept most of the day. I have a room full of decorations for my house that I’ve been making smaller & smaller by fixing & beautifying our home by hanging things up & such. Well a couple weeks ago I found some frames & made a collage of them in the store on the floor & I was inspired…
What happened next? yep new sheets, a side dresser, a throw, blanket, & a couple throw pillows. I already had the curtain rod from the tapestry I had hung on the wall previously over the bed, the lace curtains my mom mailed to me when we lived in Utah & I was saving them for someday. I also had already purchased the lamp & shade, the big quatrefoil mirror, the Bison skull, most of which were just sitting waiting to be used in my “storage room”. I found the frames & a side dresser & I was inspired & thought of the decorations at home that would blend well with my vision. So this past Thursday while trying to take my mind off things & relieve stress the guest room got a re-transformation.
Its not exactly how I want it just yet but it’ll do for now. I have a lot more things in mind I’d like to add, but things are kind of at a halt for now. Which I don’t mind because I just walk into this room & I am immediately relaxed. I am just drawn to different & Love me some bohemian inspired style. I may not be a gypsy or have had a chance to travel the lands but I wander. In spirit & mind I am always wandering, dreaming up new ideas & goals, striving for new ways to better myself & the life of my family, ways in which even as little as they may be I can make a change & impact the lives of others.
It boggles my mind to think design wise how I have gotten to where I am & shutter to think at where I was. When we first got married I did a vintage style home but I was never happy with it because everything was beige and bland & it seemed more like an antique shop (the bad kind not the good kind) instead of cozy, simple, & refreshing as well as relaxing. & I wasn’t allowed to paint my walls in our apartment so that bummed me out. Then we moved to Texas & lived with my parents for some months & I got to dream up what I wanted our next home to be & I just came back to a bohemian, eclectic, southern, mix of sorts style. There are things I look at that I love & then there are things that I’m just like, I like it but it needs something or a new spot.
***My biggest tip for Decorating fill your home with things you LOVE. NOT temporary things. It drives me crazy when i hear people say well i’ll just get this for now… NO NO & NO!! Don’t spend money on temporary things put that money toward something your Crazy about, save up for what you really want, or hunt on craigslist & make it your own. My goal for my home is to fill it with pretty things whether I find them on the side of the road or I score some more deals at Homegoods. A tip within a tip, choose pieces that tell a story, I found a saying once & it said:
Collect things you love, that are authentic to you, & your house becomes your story.
My sole goal for a home is that, & a home of love filled with love & peace & a place where the spirit can dwell. Those are probably the Best tips I could give anyone in regards to decorating & designing your home.
What are design tips or guidelines you go by in making your house a home?
FINDS: (I tried to hunt down online all that I found because everything I purchased was In Store)
Large Quatrefoil Mirror-Homegoods
Side Dresser- Homegoods
Lumbar Pillow- Homegoods
Square Pillow- Target
Fur Throw- World Market
Alarm Clock- Target
Bison Skull- White Faux Taxidermy
Curtain Rod- Home Goods
Curtains- Gifted by my momma
Brass Armadillo- West Elm
Frame on Side dresser- I bought two of these, one is the top right one in the frame collage this one on the side dresser both of which are from- Home Goods
So I have this box…
(yes that is Diesel’s paw, he always sneaks into shots he’s a camera hog)
My mom made me this box when I was in primary (4-6yrs old i think, I’ve had it a long while) I think it was for a primary talk or sharing time or something. I remember making it with my mom & taking it to primary & showing it to the primary. Well over the years I kept primary sharing time handouts, projects, then young women handouts, & then seminary & institute journals, notes & handouts & i have no idea what else!! Its become kind of a spiritual time capsule (I am sure that is NOT what this was intended for) but it just became a place where I stored all of my church stuff over the years. I have been wanting to go through it for so long & now I am going to save it (if i can wait!!) for this weekend & excavate it between Conference sessions. I am pretty excited to see how I have progressed in the gospel, & to remember how I felt back then, my little testimony & such!!
Here is a peek inside:
There are layers of my youth under this top layer ha!
I am way to neat freaky now to keep things like this any longer but I dunno maybe I will organize the inside & keep it going?
Do any of y’all remember doing this or have done anything like this?
***So I totally found the original article that my mom used & the idea behind the “Sabbath Treasure Box” it was in 1995, i was 5, so I’ve had this thing 20 years!!***